Hi guys. Part of my initiation was to acknowledge the value of all that is, even things that do not seem to have value, or seem to detract from the value of things. I think this idea is obvious to the subtle mind, but the conscious mind doesn’t spend a lot of time contemplating it- and that is what I believe is the real focal point of Chaos Magick- finding the purpose and use for everything- to open the door to new things that we can admire and use.
This observation will vary depending upon experience, but after a few years of paring life down to the fundamentals, I see that its not actually that complicated. How did I do this? My initiation began with the contemplation of Good and Evil, which caused a sort of paranoia in me that led me on a chase until I defeated it. I had to name a fundamental Good, and a fundamental Evil- something absolute from one perspective- without making any concessions that the Evil is Good- this required a certain optimism and recognition of what we believe we enjoy at the outset- and I defined this fundamentally as; Good is that which aids us in our efforts, and Evil is that which opposes. This might sound obvious, and it should be, but again, these are not things we consciously recognize and catalogue. My spiritual path has led me to many fundamentals that bring me a sort of calm, and peace- and strength- strength that helps me accept that which I have no power over, and to recognize, if necessary, that which seems disturbing.
So when something is an obstacle, it might seem to be bad, but in Chaos Magick we recognize its value- even though most of us would rather not be opposed, it provides a strength- a strength that we need, and why do we need to be strong? This strength actually harms our emotional body, and its True that the Good of Love is not to want the emotional body harmed, and that when our emotional body is harmed, we act callously. So why do we need this endurance? Its because of our physical environment; Nature, and the act of struggling to go from place to place, and endure the variety of things on this path. We need a certain thick skin, or we would be too feeble.
So why am I sharing this? Its because my initiation was a sort of obsession to conquer Chaos, pain, fear, death, and hatred. This is a sort of ideal that most mystics begin with, because the earnest heart aims at the greatest Good. Im writing this to say that it is impossible. Essentially, shit happens, and we have to manage it. Now, Chaos Magick is about scooping up the poop and making it into gold, and that is its value. Ive been told that a mystic is not meant to examine Chaos, but I think that is wrong, that is exactly how we arrive at improvements.
So when you start on your mystical and Magickal journey, keep this in mind, and expect that God is ALL, and that there is a good and a bad result from everything, and only God knows the reason for establishing this system, and only God knows what He intended to be the result. Don’t sweat it out- but don’t ignore Wisdom either.